A Change Is Coming

Ok I promise not every blog post will be like this, but I thought about something today while I was bleaching underneath the bathroom sinks. (Yeah don't ask.) Maybe my relationship with God has been a lot like the relationship I have with my children. I tell them over and over again what the right thing is and eventually I just shut up and let them make the mistake because they aren't listening anyways and I'm wasting my energy trying to tell them they are making a bad choice. I think God has been trying to tell me something since early last fall and I was scared to hear it so I didn't listen. I kept feeling like something was pulling me in a certain direction but it's a big change and it's scary and I was too damn scared to just trust my instincts and God's voice. So here I am, after months of being scared and nervous about taking a big step in life and I'm finally going to do it. I figure at this point I've tried everything else and that voice is still there telling me where I really need to be. It'll be fine. I know at the end of the day it will be just fine. :) And for those of you who know about these big changes, shhhh. I'm not ready for everyone to know just yet. The changes are good and I believe my family will be much happier because of them. It's all good.

Bet You Never Thought You'd See This

Those of you who know me fairly well know that I'm generally not a very religious or preachy kind of person. I don't quote Bible verses and I don't go around telling people what to believe or not believe. Lately church has kind of been hitting home for me though with everything our family has gone through for the last few months. This was the message this morning:

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

My immediate reaction was that God didn't protect me from slipping nor was he there by my side keeping me from harm, but when I thought more about it I realized that if I had been looking to God and trusting in Him more then I wouldn't have needed such protection. I was looking for help and answers in the wrong places. When I most needed to turn to God and trust that he would help guide me on the right path, I instead turned my back and made some bad choices in life. Thankfully, God (and Matt, the kids, our family and friends) is very forgiving and now when I'm looking to Him for help and asking for guidance when I'm struggling He seems to be there with an answer. I'm taking a few big leaps of faith in life right now and trusting that things will be fine. He will be my help and strength when I need it. I just need to trust in that.

Science City

Ok so I haven't completely abandoned this blog. Things have just been slightly hectic, ya know? I'm posting some pics from our Kansas City trip a few weeks ago. We took the kids to Science City at Union Station and they had a blast. We also went to the Fritz restaurant, did some swimming and did some stellar shopping. We brought home 2 very tired kiddos but they had so much fun and they're already asking about where we're going next. M is talking about Frisco and can't wait to go back. J doesn't really care where we go but he really wants to go see big dinosaurs at a museum. I think we've got that covered with our Denver trip we have planned for the summer.